I say that “we all have mental health, good or bad”, because we all have minds. In True reality we all share the One Mind, but at this point let’s go with the worldly view of us being individuals with separate minds, where we have thoughts and emotions.
I had a massive nervous breakdown in 2007, which had been festering with grief since my daughter emigrated to Australia in October 2005. She was born in Oz, in 1983 when we were living there, so she has dual-nationality and could visit Australia whenever she wanted to. In 2004, after a three-month travelling experience with a girlfriend, she decided to go and live in Sydney.
When she first told me her plans, my initial reaction, bearing in mind I’d been a single mum since my kids were 7 & 9 years’ old, was, “Fantastic! It’ll be amazing and I can come and visit you!” That reminds me of when she was born, a baby sister for her 22 month-old brother … “Hello,” I said looking down at her in my arms, “We can go shopping together!” Well, after going through my second long labour, I deserved a guaranteed shopping partner! (And that worked out well, by-the-way!!)
Then, the following January 2006, my son also went to live in Australia on a one-year working visa, so I was left (my subconscious told me that I’d been abandoned yet again), and I was living on my own in what had been our family home for the last 18 years in a small village, and I felt very isolated and was grieving for my loss of both kids to a country 12,000 miles’ away. Unbeknown to me, I went slowly downhill without knowing what was “happening” to me… and having repressed childhood emotions of sadness and loss, I was heading for a massive breakdown.
I became increasingly depressed and anxious, I lost two stone (28lbs) in weight and had to buy two sizes smaller in jeans. I was desperate for company and used to greet our Postie over-keenly just because I wanted someone to speak to! I’d already started my ‘Master Your Life’ business in 2004, and had left my paid fundraising job in the charity Id worked for to focus on teaching spirituality full-time. I had over 20 ‘Master Your Life’ students up until 2008, when I finally had to submit to my poor mental health and address my healing.
Those students by-the-way, and I’m very happy to relate, went on to become healers, astrologers, yoga practitioners, expressive artists, and one Pilates teacher, and continued to grow both spiritually and to lead happier, richer lives. A few went and did courses with my metaphysics teacher, Margaret McElroy, then in Seattle and who has since passed away, so they benefitted from her wonderful teachings too.
The healing process for me was up and down, and as Margaret taught us, it would be three steps forward and two steps back. The healing journey is not necessarily an easy one, although the steps are simple to understand. I searched for answers outside of myself for healing from therapists; I talked to psychiatrists (four in England and one in Australia); and various counsellors, but ultimately my own physical health and spiritual and mental practices were up to me, with support from others, of course, we should always receive assistance from supporters and loved ones.
This blog might become a book, so I’ll stop now!
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